Once I got home mom and Chris helped me out so much. From the 26th on my husband was trying to get home. He got delayed because of rain. He got delayed because he didn't get cleared. He got delayed because the base SUCKS! Then I finally got word that he would be state side the next morning. I got VERY excited and anxious. I knew that I would have way too much anxiety at the airport so I had to put Trace in my Moby wrap when we got there. Then I saw his plane land. I had a sign, mom and Chris had flags and the video camera. We went to stand at the end of security. There were other people waiting and they all looked at the sign and the baby. Each one of them said that they were happy that they were going to be able to see our reunion. -Trace was 5 days old- As I looked down the walk way through security I could see a guy in ACUs. Thats when I lost it. I was shaking and crying. Really I can't even explain the way I was feeling. And I think that only the people that have been through it will ever be able to understand me completely. Then I feel his arms around me and I totally lost it. I was sobbing. Everyone around us was clapping. I finally quit shaking enough to take Trace out of the Moby wrap and hand him to my husband. Let me tell you, that was the best thing I have ever seen. Those of you that don't know my husband, he is not an emotional person AT ALL. And I could see him welling up a little bit. After about 5 minutes of standing there and just taking everything in we decide that both of us can walk again and we head home.
My husband was home for 15 days. It was a great 15 days.
When we took him to the airport to leave Trace and I went through security with him. Once again, everyone was so nice to us. I did a good job and didn't cry until it was really time for him to board the plane. He was one of the last ones, there was a line in the jetway and the guy at the gate said, "You have a few more minutes. I'm not going to rush you at all." So we stood there, him holding Trace and an arm around me holding me as close as he could. Of course I was crying and shaking (again). Then it was time. Our last kisses. Our last, "I love you. I'll miss you. Don't forget about me. and Stay safe." And he was on the plane. I stood there with Trace until his plane left. Off I went, back out through security, and home.
We are now on the downward side of the deployment and I am getting use to him being gone again. Thank goodness I have Trace here to kiss all of the time. He takes up most of my day so that helps the days go by faster. But it's still tough. Soon enough I will have my little family back together. But for now, I have my mom and Chris to help me. (I will never be able to do anything to repay them for all that they have done already for me, Trace, and my husband. I love you both more than you know!)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
So much has happened pt. 1
Well, I will start with my last doctor's visit. It was June 22nd and the doc checked me and then said the famous last words, "You should be good for another week or two." So I went away thinking, "Well, I can do a week and a half no problem then." Thursday, Friday, and saturday were spent cleaning. Friday and Saturday Mom, Chris, and I spent most of the day cleaning the Lani. By that I mean we moved everything and scrubbed the floor, organized, and put stuff back. (If you've ever seen the lani you would understand that this is a HUGE job). Not to mention that it was hot as hell. Both days I ended up in the pool to cool down and just relax. Saturday night we made Nick's sloppy joes, which were SO good.
-Minor back story- from the 22nd on, every morning and night I would write an email to the hubby that only had words in the subject line, "No labor yet."
I got into bed Saturday night and was texting my father-in-law. As I just about fell asleep I remembered to e-mail the hubby and said, "No labor yet." The got up to use the restroom. As I am standing there washing my hands, after I peed, something is not right. I feel like I am peeing on myself. I said to myself, "I just went to the bathroom, I didn't sneeze (those of you other mom's know what I am talking about), what the hell...OH S**T! My water broke!" I go knock on mom's door and said, "I think my water just broke." Mom responds with, "are you sure?" I say, "Yeah!" and then I head back to the bathroom. On the way I grab my phone. I sit back down and I start to bawl. I do this for about 2 minutes because I am realizing that my husband will not be home for the birth of our first child. I call my friend Katie, I cry, and she helps me calm down (I'll never be able to repay her for the few words she had to say to me because it got me back into the frame of mind that I needed to be in). Then I call my doc, mind you, we had not discussed calling when I go into labor because I still have one or two weeks. The on call doc calls me back and tells me to go to the hospital. I grab my bag, mom and Chris get their's and we head to the hospital. After we get there and get all checked in and settled they decide to start me on pitocin, at this time I still had not felt a contraction. Once the pitocin got started (2am) the nurses tell me to try to get some sleep. I was too wound up to do that. All I could think about was, "What if he doesn't get the email and doesn't even know I'm in labor until Trace is born?" So I think about my options. Option 1- RED CROSS: we had been told to call the Red Cross to get the message that we were in labor and then our husband's would hopefully be on the next flight out. WRONG! The Red Cross proceeds to tell me that they don't make Labor Messages, only Birth Messages. I get PISSED. Option 2- Get ahold of all Army wives that I know and ask them to message their husband to get ahold of mine and tell him to call me ASAP. Option 2 worked! One of the wives, whose husband is with mine, email her hubby the message. He finally calls (6am). I tell him what is going on, he had just gotten back and was exhausted. At least he knew now. I'm able to sleep for about 15 minutes. 7am rolls around and I am starting to have to breathe through the contractions now. The nurses change out and the new ones come in. I ask them to check me because it had been a while since I was checked last. I was 5cm...ummm...time for the epidural. I get the epidural and feel great! Then I start to get a bad pain on my left side. The nurse checks me and says, "You're a little more than 8, but we will call the doc and see if he can reposition the epidural." Took the doc a little while, 45 minutes or so, and teh nurse checks me again before he gets there. The look on her face was so funny, she said, "Well, its too late, you're 10 and ready to push." She calls the OB and he gets there. As he is putting on his gear my hubby calls! The doc was so nice, not my doc and I had never even met this one. He talked to my hubby through the entire thing. I pushed for all of 13 mintues and Trace was out. My hubby got to hear the first cry. It was the next best thing to having him there with me. I felt great after. And honestly, I didn't feel a thing when I was pushing.
After a few hours I got sent to the post pardom side. All of the nurses were so funny. The couldn't believe that I was the one that gave birth. They all said that I looked so good and was in such a good mood that it couldn't have been me. In the 2 nights that I had to stay there I only had motrin one time, for some back pain, and they couldn't believe that either.
Finally I got to go home!
-Minor back story- from the 22nd on, every morning and night I would write an email to the hubby that only had words in the subject line, "No labor yet."
I got into bed Saturday night and was texting my father-in-law. As I just about fell asleep I remembered to e-mail the hubby and said, "No labor yet." The got up to use the restroom. As I am standing there washing my hands, after I peed, something is not right. I feel like I am peeing on myself. I said to myself, "I just went to the bathroom, I didn't sneeze (those of you other mom's know what I am talking about), what the hell...OH S**T! My water broke!" I go knock on mom's door and said, "I think my water just broke." Mom responds with, "are you sure?" I say, "Yeah!" and then I head back to the bathroom. On the way I grab my phone. I sit back down and I start to bawl. I do this for about 2 minutes because I am realizing that my husband will not be home for the birth of our first child. I call my friend Katie, I cry, and she helps me calm down (I'll never be able to repay her for the few words she had to say to me because it got me back into the frame of mind that I needed to be in). Then I call my doc, mind you, we had not discussed calling when I go into labor because I still have one or two weeks. The on call doc calls me back and tells me to go to the hospital. I grab my bag, mom and Chris get their's and we head to the hospital. After we get there and get all checked in and settled they decide to start me on pitocin, at this time I still had not felt a contraction. Once the pitocin got started (2am) the nurses tell me to try to get some sleep. I was too wound up to do that. All I could think about was, "What if he doesn't get the email and doesn't even know I'm in labor until Trace is born?" So I think about my options. Option 1- RED CROSS: we had been told to call the Red Cross to get the message that we were in labor and then our husband's would hopefully be on the next flight out. WRONG! The Red Cross proceeds to tell me that they don't make Labor Messages, only Birth Messages. I get PISSED. Option 2- Get ahold of all Army wives that I know and ask them to message their husband to get ahold of mine and tell him to call me ASAP. Option 2 worked! One of the wives, whose husband is with mine, email her hubby the message. He finally calls (6am). I tell him what is going on, he had just gotten back and was exhausted. At least he knew now. I'm able to sleep for about 15 minutes. 7am rolls around and I am starting to have to breathe through the contractions now. The nurses change out and the new ones come in. I ask them to check me because it had been a while since I was checked last. I was 5cm...ummm...time for the epidural. I get the epidural and feel great! Then I start to get a bad pain on my left side. The nurse checks me and says, "You're a little more than 8, but we will call the doc and see if he can reposition the epidural." Took the doc a little while, 45 minutes or so, and teh nurse checks me again before he gets there. The look on her face was so funny, she said, "Well, its too late, you're 10 and ready to push." She calls the OB and he gets there. As he is putting on his gear my hubby calls! The doc was so nice, not my doc and I had never even met this one. He talked to my hubby through the entire thing. I pushed for all of 13 mintues and Trace was out. My hubby got to hear the first cry. It was the next best thing to having him there with me. I felt great after. And honestly, I didn't feel a thing when I was pushing.
After a few hours I got sent to the post pardom side. All of the nurses were so funny. The couldn't believe that I was the one that gave birth. They all said that I looked so good and was in such a good mood that it couldn't have been me. In the 2 nights that I had to stay there I only had motrin one time, for some back pain, and they couldn't believe that either.
Finally I got to go home!
Monday, June 20, 2011
I love my Charlie girl
Well, I'm pretty sure just about everyone knows that we have a WONDERFUL white lab named Charlie. And I really do treat her like she is my baby. Before the hubby left she was attached to him at the hip and really would listen to him, and would listen to me only if I made my voice deep like his. But since the deployment started she really has become more "my" dog. I know that everyone is bias with their animal and claims that they have the "best" dog or cat or whatever. But I can honestly say that I have the best trained dog I have ever seen, in real life or on TV. She never barks and I mean never, unless you get her very excited and ask her to speak. She does not jump on people. She will only crawl onto your lap, only with her front paws, if you ask her to. And even then she usually looks at me and once I say that it is ok she will love on you. She sleeps next to the crib most nights now that it is up and ready. She doesn't whine at all either. When we eat all I have to do is tell her not to beg and she goes and lays down. There can be other dogs barking at her and all she does is raise her eye brows and perks up her ears.
I'm guessing that she will be so excited when the hubby walks in the door and she will just about knock him over. I am excited for him to get to spend a little bit of time with her and show her that he hasn't forgotten about her too.
Right now she is laying next to my chair just relaxing like she does most days.
Its nice to have her down here with me because even though its too hot to let her run in the empty lot during the day she LOVES to go swimming and has officially started to stick her entire head under the water to get whatever toy we have thrown in for her. (Maybe she will be a hunting dog after all).
I just wanted to brag a little about my puppy because she really is an amazing dog and every single day I am so grateful that she is in my life. I love my Charlie girl.
I'm guessing that she will be so excited when the hubby walks in the door and she will just about knock him over. I am excited for him to get to spend a little bit of time with her and show her that he hasn't forgotten about her too.
Right now she is laying next to my chair just relaxing like she does most days.
Its nice to have her down here with me because even though its too hot to let her run in the empty lot during the day she LOVES to go swimming and has officially started to stick her entire head under the water to get whatever toy we have thrown in for her. (Maybe she will be a hunting dog after all).
I just wanted to brag a little about my puppy because she really is an amazing dog and every single day I am so grateful that she is in my life. I love my Charlie girl.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Almost 36 weeks
Had another appointment this week. Doc says things are looking great, head is down and I'm not dilated at all, which gives me a great sign of relief. Means we just might get to have daddy at home for the birth. Got to talk to the hubby yesterday morning and he said that one of the guys he met had gotten a red cross message then had to wait 3+ days before he even got to leave. So, I am not counting on the red cross to help us get him home anytime soon (hopefully we don't need it at all).
Dropped mom and Chris off at the airport this morning so they can go to Ohio to visit Kate and go to her graduation! So I've got 4 days all alone. It'll be kinda nice because this will be the last time I EVER have alone time. At least for the next 7 months. I was so use to being alone all of the time while the hubby was 3 hours away from me while we dated. So it'll be interesting to see how the next 4 days go.
I got a package from Miss Katie yesterday. It had some of the cutest clothes for Trace, some wonderful heartfelt things for me, some books for Trace, cards, and coupons! Let me tell you, coupons would not have been something that I ever thought to send someone...but THEY ARE THE BEST THING TO GET! Let me tell you a little about Katie. We "met" over facebook and started calling and texting because we were having similar problems. She has twin 18month old girls, that are BEAUTIFUL! She is part of the FRG, has to worry about her family, and of course, with deployment comes the "everything must go wrong". But poor Katie has had more go wrong than I would ever imagine. She has got to be one of the strongest people I have ever met. And I am thankful every day that I can call her my friend. Love you girl!
Well, on to my day of probably doing NOTHING. Tomorrow my sister and I will be going to a wedding. Sunday I will probably do nothing again. Monday is my birthday, and I have a nurse coming to the house to do a medical eval for life insurance. Then Tuesday I pick up mom and Chris. Should be a fun weekend.
Pretty soon my post will be HE IS HOME! I can't wait. Love you Boo!
Dropped mom and Chris off at the airport this morning so they can go to Ohio to visit Kate and go to her graduation! So I've got 4 days all alone. It'll be kinda nice because this will be the last time I EVER have alone time. At least for the next 7 months. I was so use to being alone all of the time while the hubby was 3 hours away from me while we dated. So it'll be interesting to see how the next 4 days go.
I got a package from Miss Katie yesterday. It had some of the cutest clothes for Trace, some wonderful heartfelt things for me, some books for Trace, cards, and coupons! Let me tell you, coupons would not have been something that I ever thought to send someone...but THEY ARE THE BEST THING TO GET! Let me tell you a little about Katie. We "met" over facebook and started calling and texting because we were having similar problems. She has twin 18month old girls, that are BEAUTIFUL! She is part of the FRG, has to worry about her family, and of course, with deployment comes the "everything must go wrong". But poor Katie has had more go wrong than I would ever imagine. She has got to be one of the strongest people I have ever met. And I am thankful every day that I can call her my friend. Love you girl!
Well, on to my day of probably doing NOTHING. Tomorrow my sister and I will be going to a wedding. Sunday I will probably do nothing again. Monday is my birthday, and I have a nurse coming to the house to do a medical eval for life insurance. Then Tuesday I pick up mom and Chris. Should be a fun weekend.
Pretty soon my post will be HE IS HOME! I can't wait. Love you Boo!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Baby stuff
Had another doctor appointment this week. It went well, like always. Then I got to go over and check out the hospital rooms that I will be using to deliver and recover. They are nice rooms and I am actually looking forward to giving birth at that hospital. After checking out the rooms I went and preregistered with the hospital so I don't have to worry about doing that while in labor. I also found out that I have to have an epidural consultation if I want to have the option of an epidural at all. Apparently at the hospital they believe that while you are in the throws of labor you cannot make a decision properly. WELL DUH! It makes sense to me. So, I had the consultation and now I have the option for an epidural.
I should be receiving my diaper bag tomorrow. Let me tell you how excited I am for this...Seriously, I feel like it's Christmas! I have been waiting almost a month since I ordered it and it will finally be here.
Today my sister Serrin was kind enough to take time out from her studying and take maternity pictures of me. We went out to Boca Grande, which happens to be one of the most beautiful places in Florida. We did almost all beach pictures. Lots of clothing changes...mind you, I changed on the beach so that was interesting. After we got done at the light house at the end of Boca Grande we went to another part of the beach. I put on a long dress and got into the water. It felt so good to cool down a bit, since it was hot and humid out today. Serrin asked me if I would lay on the beach in the water. HECK YEAH! Now I had not fully planned for this, so EVERYTHING was wet and when I stood up I'm pretty sure I had sand in places I never expected. From the few pictures that I saw I am thinking that its going to be another excited for "Christmas" thing when she tells me that they are done. After we were done with pictures we were going to lunch. With a see through dress on and since it was about 2 feet longer than I am tall I figured it was time to change. I DO NOT go into porta potties because they gross me out, so I had the option to stay in the see through wet dress or change in the parking lot. There goes my clothes! I did have a bigger coat to hold up so mom did that for me and there I changed. It was a good laugh.
I cannot wait to be able to send the pictures to my hubby so he can see them too!
I love my husband, and only 44 more days before we meet our son!
I should be receiving my diaper bag tomorrow. Let me tell you how excited I am for this...Seriously, I feel like it's Christmas! I have been waiting almost a month since I ordered it and it will finally be here.
Today my sister Serrin was kind enough to take time out from her studying and take maternity pictures of me. We went out to Boca Grande, which happens to be one of the most beautiful places in Florida. We did almost all beach pictures. Lots of clothing changes...mind you, I changed on the beach so that was interesting. After we got done at the light house at the end of Boca Grande we went to another part of the beach. I put on a long dress and got into the water. It felt so good to cool down a bit, since it was hot and humid out today. Serrin asked me if I would lay on the beach in the water. HECK YEAH! Now I had not fully planned for this, so EVERYTHING was wet and when I stood up I'm pretty sure I had sand in places I never expected. From the few pictures that I saw I am thinking that its going to be another excited for "Christmas" thing when she tells me that they are done. After we were done with pictures we were going to lunch. With a see through dress on and since it was about 2 feet longer than I am tall I figured it was time to change. I DO NOT go into porta potties because they gross me out, so I had the option to stay in the see through wet dress or change in the parking lot. There goes my clothes! I did have a bigger coat to hold up so mom did that for me and there I changed. It was a good laugh.
I cannot wait to be able to send the pictures to my hubby so he can see them too!
I love my husband, and only 44 more days before we meet our son!
Sunday, May 22, 2011
WOOP WOOP
Well, last week was a great one. On Tuesday I drove up to Orlando and checked into All Star Sports resort on Disney property. An hour or so later I finally got to meet Lauren and her youngest son (who has donated all of his clothes to Trace). We got to hang out all night and went to Rain Forrest Cafe for supper. The look on Lauren's middle son's face when the "thunder storm" started was one of the funniest things I have ever seen. We got back to the hotel pretty late and it was time for me to go to bed. Of course, I couldn't fall asleep until after 1am and then woke up wide awake at 5:30am. I finally got my butt out of bed about 7 and started to get ready for the day. About 9 we went to breakfast at the hotel then got onto the bus to head to Magic Kingdom. We got into the park and I'm pretty sure Lauren and I were the most excited out of the 6 of us. A full day of park madness and one of the BEST lunches EVER! I actually felt really great after walking around the park all day. It was time for me to drive back home. The drive didn't seem very long since I got to talk to Katie most of the way, and then finally got to talk to my best friend Tymmony!
Earlier in the week I found out that we had an official closing date for our house. And now, we might be moving that closing date up to June 1st!
Got to talk to the hubby finally, after 11 days, on Thursday morning. He is doing well, very busy and not getting much sleep. I feel so bad for him because he is so concerned about what he will be doing when he gets back home. I keep trying to tell him that we will figure it all out as a family.
I have my next doctor appointment on Wednesday this week and get to meet with the birthing class instructor to get a personal tour of the hospital that I will be delivering at. I am so thankful that I did the "at home" class. I got to pick when I read the book and watched the DVD. And I get to ask any questions that I might have on Wednesday. I hate sitting through class and am so glad I got to avoid it.
I feel so lucky to have met Lauren finally. She is even better in person that I could have imagined. And her boys are great too! Sitting in the Laugh Factory and watching her oldest get very excited, laughing, and participating in everything gave me a little insight of what things might be like with Trace when he is 7. So, thank you Lauren for inviting me to come to Disney World with you and your family.
Earlier in the week I found out that we had an official closing date for our house. And now, we might be moving that closing date up to June 1st!
Got to talk to the hubby finally, after 11 days, on Thursday morning. He is doing well, very busy and not getting much sleep. I feel so bad for him because he is so concerned about what he will be doing when he gets back home. I keep trying to tell him that we will figure it all out as a family.
I have my next doctor appointment on Wednesday this week and get to meet with the birthing class instructor to get a personal tour of the hospital that I will be delivering at. I am so thankful that I did the "at home" class. I got to pick when I read the book and watched the DVD. And I get to ask any questions that I might have on Wednesday. I hate sitting through class and am so glad I got to avoid it.
I feel so lucky to have met Lauren finally. She is even better in person that I could have imagined. And her boys are great too! Sitting in the Laugh Factory and watching her oldest get very excited, laughing, and participating in everything gave me a little insight of what things might be like with Trace when he is 7. So, thank you Lauren for inviting me to come to Disney World with you and your family.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Less than 8 weeks to go
Last week my Mother-in-law was down for 8 days. It was so nice to have her here. I am excited that she finally got to see Trace moving around. Not many people have seen or felt him, I think that when I say, "Oh, there, he's moving" that he hears me and thinks, "haha...not anymore mom!" Little butt head! Apparently she was in on the surprise baby shower that my mom, my sister, Kristin, Ashley, and Marissa had put together for me. It was a surprise for sure. I was told that we would be going to eat supper but we had to pick Kristin up first. We got to her house and there everyone was. It was so nice. I had not expected a baby shower at all. I can't believe everything that we have gotten for this little boy. In the last week or so my mom and I have been working hard on getting the baby room all set up. Every day it gets closer and closer to being done. The last doctor's appointment went well. I am up 14lbs now. And the heart rate was strong at 150. I have the next appointment on the 25th.
Tomorrow I get to drive up to Disney World and meet up with Lauren and her family. I am so excited, not just for Disney World, but to be able to meet Lauren finally. We have talked on the phone quite a bit and she has sent me so many baby clothes I think she could have single handedly clothed our child. Let me tell you a little about this woman that I have yet to meet. I "met" her through Katie, on Facebook. And we became friends right away, just like Katie and I did. I feel like I have known her forever already. Her husband just got back from deployment, so she has given me some great advice for our own deployment. I don't know if I have ever met someone as generous as her. She took care of her 3 boys, worked out like a mad woman, and managed to keep it together the whole time her husband was gone. She is a funny woman and always has a great story to tell, like seeing the women fighting in McDonalds. She gives me inspiration to work my butt off once this baby is born to get back into shape. And, since she had her youngest son just before her husband left, I know that I will be able to talk to her about taking care of my own son after my husband leaves again. Needless to say, I am more than excited to finally meet this woman. (Her and I are both Disney freaks so it should be a good time going to the park with her!)
We have 55 days until we have this little boy in our arms. I can't believe that it has gone so fast! I just hope that the next 55 days goes just as fast.
I love my hubby and can't wait until he calls, I have some news for him!
Tomorrow I get to drive up to Disney World and meet up with Lauren and her family. I am so excited, not just for Disney World, but to be able to meet Lauren finally. We have talked on the phone quite a bit and she has sent me so many baby clothes I think she could have single handedly clothed our child. Let me tell you a little about this woman that I have yet to meet. I "met" her through Katie, on Facebook. And we became friends right away, just like Katie and I did. I feel like I have known her forever already. Her husband just got back from deployment, so she has given me some great advice for our own deployment. I don't know if I have ever met someone as generous as her. She took care of her 3 boys, worked out like a mad woman, and managed to keep it together the whole time her husband was gone. She is a funny woman and always has a great story to tell, like seeing the women fighting in McDonalds. She gives me inspiration to work my butt off once this baby is born to get back into shape. And, since she had her youngest son just before her husband left, I know that I will be able to talk to her about taking care of my own son after my husband leaves again. Needless to say, I am more than excited to finally meet this woman. (Her and I are both Disney freaks so it should be a good time going to the park with her!)
We have 55 days until we have this little boy in our arms. I can't believe that it has gone so fast! I just hope that the next 55 days goes just as fast.
I love my hubby and can't wait until he calls, I have some news for him!
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