Well, I am home now from visiting my husband. Tuesday started out great because he met me at the airport. But then plans fell through for the pinning and he had to leave again. Only a few hours later and we were together again. We spent most of our time just the two of us so it was very nice. We didn't do much, shopped for baby stuff, shirts for me, and lots of fun stuff for him. It was for the most part relaxing. The first night we went and ate supper on post then went back to lodging and just sat in bed watching tv. The hubby watched Baby Boo move around a bit that night and he thought it was pretty cool. Sad part is, He never could feel him moving. The next few days flew by. We almost ended up in Mexico one day...a little scary...but it was an adventure. I did a very god job not crying until Thursday night. I could tell something was bothering him, and getting him to talk is like pulling teeth. So, I finally got some words out of him...and that's when I lost it. I finally had to tell him to put his arms around me and just hold me while I sobbed. Thankfully that lasted just about 10 minutes then I managed to pull myself together and everything was ok again. Every morning I woke up about 4 hours before him, and each morning I laid there just staring at him. Memorizing every inch of his face, his arms, and his back. And yes, each morning the horrible thought of, "This could be the last time I ever get to do this" came to mind. Of course I think positively and I know deep down that he will come home and everything will be just fine. But there is always that little voice, that I think every military wife has, that says, always prepare for the worst that way if the best happens it'll be a very welcome surprise. Friday night was the hardest, I was so tired, and fell asleep way too early. But woke up Saturday and tried to pretend that it was not our last day together. I woke him up early and we got breakfast. Then we just laid in bed. We both were thinking the same thing but neither of us wanted to say anything. So we went about our day. Then we went back to the room and took a nap. We woke up and realized that it was 1900. My first thought was, "Only 4 more hours...NOOOOOOOOO!" He got up and got ready then he took some baby bump pictures. He also read Baby Boo a book, which I took video of on my phone so I can play it every night while he is gone. Then it was time to go. So we took him to the barracks. I went in with him and said hi to the guys. Then it was time. We walked outside and stood there hugging for a good 15 minutes. We talked and said those things that no one wants to say but knows the other one needs to hear. I did good, only crying a little, until I pulled my head back and look at his eyes. Then I completely lost it. I was crying harder than I have ever cried before. We said our I Love you's and our I'll miss you's. Then it was time for me to go. As I pulled away I watched him in the mirror. I went back to lodging and tried to sleep. I left this morning and am back home now.
By far the hardest thing I have ever done. Soon they will all be on their way, then sooner that we all know it they will be on their way back.
I love my husband and couldn't be more proud of him. I love you Boo!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
I'm too excited to sleep!!!
I have ALWAYS been this way about trips...I get so excited and anxious I don't sleep. But this one is a little bit better than others. I only slept about 4 hours last night, and I'm guessing that tonight will be even worse. Alarm is set, and like any other trip, I'll be waking up before the alarm goes off.
I want to be sure to say Thank You to my friends that have sent me e-mails, texts, or called to just say that they are thinking about me. You all have NO idea how much those mean to me. I have been reading books on deployment, and how, as a spouse to handle every part of it. I finished one book the other day and started a new one yesterday. They give such insight on what to expect, what to not expect, and how to express to people how they can help you cope. One of those things to help me cope are the text messages that I get on random days...Thank you Whitney, you have NO idea how much it means to me when you send those. The random phone call that I got from a good friend Katie the other day put a smile on my face for sure. And the new friends that I am making along the way, Janeth, Katie , Sandy , and Heidi . You all have already helped make this a little easier. Sometimes I wish that I had not moved so far away from the unit, then I could just make the drive out to hang out with some of you. Then I remember, I would be alone in our house, worried about anything and everything going on, and I'd have to deal with all of the yucky snow! So deep down, I'm glad I am with family. I hope that this summer, after the baby is born, that I will be able to come up and visit everyone (so you all better offer me a place to stay). I hope that I can continue to meet more of the families from the unit.
Well, I've got a little too much anxiety, if you couldn't tell from the randomness of this whole thing.
You are all amazing people, and we hope that you all take care of each other like family. Because your family back home, is all taking care of one another as well!
I want to be sure to say Thank You to my friends that have sent me e-mails, texts, or called to just say that they are thinking about me. You all have NO idea how much those mean to me. I have been reading books on deployment, and how, as a spouse to handle every part of it. I finished one book the other day and started a new one yesterday. They give such insight on what to expect, what to not expect, and how to express to people how they can help you cope. One of those things to help me cope are the text messages that I get on random days...Thank you Whitney, you have NO idea how much it means to me when you send those. The random phone call that I got from a good friend Katie the other day put a smile on my face for sure. And the new friends that I am making along the way, Janeth, Katie , Sandy , and Heidi . You all have already helped make this a little easier. Sometimes I wish that I had not moved so far away from the unit, then I could just make the drive out to hang out with some of you. Then I remember, I would be alone in our house, worried about anything and everything going on, and I'd have to deal with all of the yucky snow! So deep down, I'm glad I am with family. I hope that this summer, after the baby is born, that I will be able to come up and visit everyone (so you all better offer me a place to stay). I hope that I can continue to meet more of the families from the unit.
Well, I've got a little too much anxiety, if you couldn't tell from the randomness of this whole thing.
You are all amazing people, and we hope that you all take care of each other like family. Because your family back home, is all taking care of one another as well!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Only a few more days...
Well, only a few more days until I get to see my hubby! Its only been about 7 weeks since I got to see him last, which for some people is such a long time, but for this deployment it is not even a fraction of the time we will spend apart. I am getting very excited for the visit. I bought my ticket to get in the morning before they actually go on leave, thinking that I would go to base lodging get checked in, grab some lunch and go check out the PX. Then go back to the hotel shower and get ready, then take my "nap" until midnight. But plans have changed for the better! First, we found out that he got his promotion and I will get to be the one to pin him. This also means, he will be picking me up at the airport the morning I get in and we will be able to spend the rest of the day together! I feel a slight obligation to gloat about this because all of the other families don't get to see their soldier for another 24+ hours after I see mine. At the same time, I feel like I can't tell the other spouses because I don't want them to get upset at their soldier for not knowing that this was a possibility and feeling like they are missing out on a whole day together.
The little boy is doing GREAT! 20 weeks today. I still can't believe that we are half way done already. I guess being pregnant while he is away is actually a good way to put the deployment into shorter sections of time.
I keep thinking, when I'm at 26 weeks I'll be headed out to Seattle for my best friend's wedding, coming home at 27 weeks, then only 13 weeks left. After the birth it'll be a long stretch until we see him again, but I'm sure with people coming to visit, and me making a couple of trips to visit Iowa the time should flow nicely.
That's all for now...I love my husband more and more every day and am so proud to be an Army wife!
I hope that the entire unit has fun with their families! Be safe, and we are all thinking about each of you every day!
The little boy is doing GREAT! 20 weeks today. I still can't believe that we are half way done already. I guess being pregnant while he is away is actually a good way to put the deployment into shorter sections of time.
I keep thinking, when I'm at 26 weeks I'll be headed out to Seattle for my best friend's wedding, coming home at 27 weeks, then only 13 weeks left. After the birth it'll be a long stretch until we see him again, but I'm sure with people coming to visit, and me making a couple of trips to visit Iowa the time should flow nicely.
That's all for now...I love my husband more and more every day and am so proud to be an Army wife!
I hope that the entire unit has fun with their families! Be safe, and we are all thinking about each of you every day!
Saturday, February 5, 2011
The first of many...
This is my first time writing a blog, and I'm not so sure I know what exactly to write. It has been a little more than 3 weeks since my husband left, and we have gone this long without seeing each other before. But this time I know that it is still weeks before I get to see him. So many things have happened since Christmas.
On Christmas day we drove to Florida. An entire 26 hours straight in the Jeep that was packed to the max and our wonderful dog. Needless to say, we were all very happy when we pulled into the driveway.
A short 4 days later we got married. It was a hectic 4 days leading up to the wedding, but all in all it was a great time. I still find it hard to believe that we are actually married. Nothing has changed except a ring on our fingers and total coverage on insurance.
Just 3 days after we got married we went on what we are calling our "honeymoon." But that is more of a joke than anything. We flew back up to Iowa then drove our happy married butts to Chicago since my husband had to report right away. For the 6 days that we were there I sat in the hotel room while he worked. Not once did we get to go out to supper, or even lunch alone.Two of his buddies participated in all of our outings. (Mind you, I love these guys like they are family, but a nice supper out with my husband would have been REALLY nice). The night before the hubby left My dad, step-mom, grandmother, his mom and dad, and our friends Chad, Karen and their son Chase came out. We all went to supper at a brewery. It was great food and the restaurant ended up buying all of my hubby's supper. What a great place and I really wish more places would do this for our wonderful service men and women.
The next morning we woke up VERY early, me with a migraine like none other, (you think it could be stress?). Bob and Chad took all of our things to the car and we headed out. Chad, Karen, and Chase stayed at the hotel to give us a little family time.
At the airport we all got to go through security. Then we waited. (The entire time I was choking back tears and trying to keep a smile on my face.) Finally it was time to say "see you later." Hugs all around then it was my turn. I only almost started to lose it completely. Of course I cried, but I knew that I would be seeing him in about 2 months. When he pulled away I even saw a little tear in his eye. The last thing he said was, "Take care of yourself and baby Boo."
Oh, did I mention that we are expecting? Yeah, as if we could pile anything else on right now. We found out in November and kept it a secret for quite some time (from everyone but my mom). I'm due July 10th, and should be finding out on Monday Feb. 7th what we are having.
I'm pretty nervous about all of this happening at once. But I know I have a great support system and am looking forward to 2012!
On Christmas day we drove to Florida. An entire 26 hours straight in the Jeep that was packed to the max and our wonderful dog. Needless to say, we were all very happy when we pulled into the driveway.
A short 4 days later we got married. It was a hectic 4 days leading up to the wedding, but all in all it was a great time. I still find it hard to believe that we are actually married. Nothing has changed except a ring on our fingers and total coverage on insurance.
Just 3 days after we got married we went on what we are calling our "honeymoon." But that is more of a joke than anything. We flew back up to Iowa then drove our happy married butts to Chicago since my husband had to report right away. For the 6 days that we were there I sat in the hotel room while he worked. Not once did we get to go out to supper, or even lunch alone.Two of his buddies participated in all of our outings. (Mind you, I love these guys like they are family, but a nice supper out with my husband would have been REALLY nice). The night before the hubby left My dad, step-mom, grandmother, his mom and dad, and our friends Chad, Karen and their son Chase came out. We all went to supper at a brewery. It was great food and the restaurant ended up buying all of my hubby's supper. What a great place and I really wish more places would do this for our wonderful service men and women.
The next morning we woke up VERY early, me with a migraine like none other, (you think it could be stress?). Bob and Chad took all of our things to the car and we headed out. Chad, Karen, and Chase stayed at the hotel to give us a little family time.
At the airport we all got to go through security. Then we waited. (The entire time I was choking back tears and trying to keep a smile on my face.) Finally it was time to say "see you later." Hugs all around then it was my turn. I only almost started to lose it completely. Of course I cried, but I knew that I would be seeing him in about 2 months. When he pulled away I even saw a little tear in his eye. The last thing he said was, "Take care of yourself and baby Boo."
Oh, did I mention that we are expecting? Yeah, as if we could pile anything else on right now. We found out in November and kept it a secret for quite some time (from everyone but my mom). I'm due July 10th, and should be finding out on Monday Feb. 7th what we are having.
I'm pretty nervous about all of this happening at once. But I know I have a great support system and am looking forward to 2012!
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